The New Year (...downloading patch for 2016...)

I think I'll jump straight into this one. I think overall 2016 is going to be a very exciting year, I'm planning to move out on my own sometime within the next few months, hopefully some to tiny urban hobbit hole (I prefer small places). Also to get a new job that will support said hobbit hole since my currant job contact expires in April. I think I'm going to miss the money but also due to the job being government sector I'm hoping it'll help my CV/resume. If I can I want to move into a studio flat in Norwich (local city) due the job market being a lot more accessible compared to where I live now. I'm saving up for a deposit as well slowly but surely paying off debt from university. Funnily enough the main thing I worry about it transporting my PC and the fear of it getting broken in transit. 

As for myself. I'm not doing too great, but I'm making an effort to try and get to where I want to go and to get help when needed. Work is...to put it politely very challenging. I now work a new shift (11-7pm) but I'm trying to encourage myself to wake up before 10am, which for today at least was successful. I'm still not drawing much unfortunately. However I am doing an illustration for Dune mostly for fun, if it actually ends up finished or on DA I have yet to know.

I think at the moment I'm still getting over leaving university despite this was last year. I believe its called "graduate blues" Its a contradictory thing to feel at one moment utterly defeated and at the same time motivated to improve because you don't have the same support structure as you did. I think over the last decade I'm been obsessed with the past and nostalgia to time I felt were easier, keeping one eye on the future and one on the past prevents you from seeing the present. Came across more pretentiously philosophical than I intended there. Either way I think its by time I put away a lot of my old toys and move on from certain relationships, perspectives and attitudes, I don't think any of this will be an automatic change (like a flick of switch) its going to the old two steps forward and one step back, but I'm very excited to see where I am this time in 2017.

If I'm going to make my resolution I want them to be achievable and realistic, the amount of times you see stuff like "Travel a new country mingle, with its populace as the chosen one and lead a rebel native army to victory against a arms dealer" is ridiculous...also I think that's the plot of most of the Farcry games. So anyway realistic things...

• Move out into my own place by the end of the year early this year if feasible
• Continue to make time to develop my art
• Apply for my Masters Degree even if I end up deferring it for year, that at least gives me a year to get things into place
• At least start toward getting a full driving license
  
• Get a Passport sorted and go to Tennolive (Warframe event) at Games-con or maybe Amsterdam for a couple of days.
• Remember change in an ongoing thing. A positive motivated attitude rarely translates to the next day, be patient with yourself
• If you need help get it. Its unlikely any anxieties and depression is symptom of adolescence by this point. If its effecting your life to the point of distraction do something about it.
• As always read more books. Not a library at least 3 is fine, its more inspiring for art than movies or TV
• Make apologies where needed, stand your ground where not.

I think that is satisfactory.

Happy 2016 everyone!